Sunday, February 18, 2024

மலரே ஏன் மலர்கின்றாய்

 



பழ கருப்பையா அவர்களின் இந்த சொற்பொழிவு மனதுக்கு சற்று வேதனை அளித்தது.  

பத்து முறை சிறை சென்றோம், கை ஒடிக்கப்பட்டது, பத்தொன்பது நாட்கள் உண்ணாவிரதம் இருந்தோம், பல காட்சிகளில் இருந்தோம் என்றல்லாது என்ன சாதித்துவிட்டோம் என்று ஒரு ஏக்கமும் தனக்கு முன்பாக ஒரு சூனியமும் உள்ளது போல் அவர் பேசும்போது, சிலுவையில் யேசுநாதர், 'இறைவனே ஏன் என்னை கைவிட்டீர்', என்று மன்றாடும் குரல் கேட்கிறது.

 

இது போன்ற ஒரு மனநிலையில்தான் தான் இருந்ததாக  இப்போதைய வழக்கறிஞரும் சாய் பக்தனும் முன்னாள் நக்ஸால்வாதியும் ஆன திரு பிலிப் M பிரசாத் கூறுகிறார். 

 

இப்படிப்பட்ட ஒரு தோய்வும் மனக்கலக்கமும் எந்த பிரதிபலனும் எதிர்பார்க்காமல் ஒரு இலட்சியத்தோடு செயல்படும் எவருக்கும், அந்த இலட்சியம் கைகூடாமல் போகும்போது வரக்கூடியதே.

 

தனிப்பட்ட இலாபத்திற்க்காக செயல்படுபவர்களுக்கு இந்த இக்கட்டு இருப்பது இல்லை. கரணம், இலாபம் ஈட்ட வேண்டும் என்ற இலக்கு எப்போதும் அவர்களுக்கு முன்பாக இருந்துகொண்டே இருக்கும்.  அதற்க்காக அவர்கள் எத்துணை நாட்களும் காத்திருக்க தயாராகவே இருப்பார்கள். அவர்களுக்கு மிகுந்த பொறுமையும் இருப்பதை காண்கிறோம்.

 

வெள்ளையனே வெளியேறு இயக்கம் உச்சத்தில் இருந்த ஒருபொழுதில் வினோபா அவர்கள் காந்தியரிடம் ஒரு கேள்வி கேட்கிறார். இதுவெல்லாம் எப்படி முடியும் என்று நினைக்கிறீர்கள் என்று. வினோபா ஒன்றும் ஆன்மிகத்தில் இளைத்தவர் அல்ல.  தன்னுடைய சீடராய் வந்த தனது குரு என்று அவரை காந்தியாரே கூறுகிறார்.  ஒருவேளை காந்தியடிகள் மனதில் உள்ளதை அறிவதற்காக அதை கேட்டாரா என்பது தெரியவில்லை.  அந்த கேள்விக்கு காந்தியார் வார்த்தையால் பதில் அளிக்கவில்லை. ஒரு புன்னகையுடன் கை விரலால் ஒரு பூஜ்யத்தை வரைந்து காட்டினாராம்.

 

அந்தத்தெளிவு இருந்தும் காந்தியரோ விநோபாவோ தமது செயல்களை சற்றும் குறைத்துக்கொள்ளவில்லை. 

 

பல முறை நண்பர்கள் கூறுகிறார்கள் - ஏன் செயல்பட வேண்டும், யாருக்காக, மனிதர்கள் நன்றிகெட்டவர்கள்,  என்றெல்லாம் . 

 

ஒரே ஒரு பதிலைத்தான் கூறி வந்திருக்கிறேன் , ' நாம் யார் என்றோ எதற்க்காகப்பிறந்தோம் என்றோ எல்லாம் தெரியாத வரை, எது சரி என்று ஒவ்வொரு சந்தர்ப்பத்திலும் படுகிறதோ அதை முடிந்தவரை சரியாக செய்துவிட்டு மற்றதை நம்மை வழிநடத்தும் அந்த சக்திகள் கையில் ஒப்படைத்துவிட்டால் நிம்மதி' என்பதே.

 

91 இல் எழுதிய கவிதை ஒன்று நினைவுக்கு வருகிறது:

 

"மலரே ஏன் மலர்கின்றாய்?

உன்னை உருவாக்கும் கணமெல்லாம்

உன் மரணத்தை அழைக்கையிலே

மலர்ந்தேன் நீ மாய்கின்றாய்?

மதிகெட்ட மலரே நீ

சற்றேனும் சிந்திப்பாய்."

 

மலர் மெல்ல நகைத்தது

'நான் எதுவும் நினைப்பதில்லை

வீணாகப்பிதற்றாதே'.

 

மலர் மீண்டும் மலர்தது

பின் தளர்ந்தது, கீழே உதிர்ந்தது.

மலர் மீண்டும் மலர்தது .


Thursday, February 15, 2024

Locked-in syndrome

 


The first time I read about it I was quite startled – the locked-in syndrome. [In the Ten Types of Human by Dexter Dias]

“ Tony had suffered a massive stroke.  It left him paralysed…..The way Jane described it, her husband’s body suddenly disappeared from his control, like the sudden vanishing of the safety of a plane to man in terrifying freefall.  Tony was cast adrift.  Only one small – miniscule – islet of control remained: blinking.  And the torment was deepened because his mind had been left unharmed, completely unimpaired.  He had locked-in syndrome.”

To have the mind functioning still, but body being totally out of control – there cannot be a more stifling life.

I was reminded of my father's plight.  One night, while he was in the ICU, it was announced to us that he had suffered a stroke and was in coma.  But after a week of being on ventilator and support system, when one day I told the doctor near his bed that I did not think he would like to lie like that, he nodded.  

We have come across a patient in Munnabai MBBS (Vasool Raja MBBS in Tamil) who is believed to be in coma, but had life inside.

I came across a similar instance narrated by another person:

“It was the first few weeks of my pregnancy when I was diagnosed with an internal haemorrhage. The prognosis was grave and surgery was an option only as a last resort at the risk of losing the foetus. I was ordered complete bed rest with absolutely no movement, so to give the wound a chance to heal itself. I lay in bed all day and night staring at the ceiling most of the time. The only welcome distraction to my eyes was the picture of Bhagavan and Sri Arunachala that I had asked to be glued on the closet door at the foot of my bed. I tried to concentrate on my prayers, repeating "Sri Arunachala Akshara Mana Malai" as much as possible.

 But the physical pain was immense, not to mention the agony of being bed ridden. Though I was under excellent medical care and had full attention from my family, I felt my strength draining from my body with each passing day. One afternoon, I had an experience. I felt the heat dissipating from my body and a chillness setting in. My hearing began losing its sharpness, vision blurring and a cloud of darkness set in. I could not move my hands nor could I voice a single word, even though I was trying to scream from within. I felt suffocated, was aware of my consciousness slipping away and felt myself sinking into something that I have no words to describe.

I panicked inside, gripped by the fear of death and thoughts of unfinished responsibilities. I experienced my life slipping away. At that moment, I cried inside to Bhagavan, begging Him, that if this was death, he should take me to Him. Then, I had the vision of the holy Sri Arunachala Mountain zooming back and forth and Bhagavan standing at one side of the hill. There was an arc of light leaving my body, like what you see in children's fairy tale movies. Bhagavan raised his hand and pushed the light back into my body. He then said, "This is not the time for you to go. You have a purpose in life. Do your duty." Then in the most gracious and affectionate way, he put his hand where I had been hurting and said, "Is this where you hurt?"

 After this I became conscious. I had no idea how long I was unconscious. All I knew was that this experience had transformed me, for when I became aware of the world, I had absolutely no pain. I immediately rose from my bed and walked briskly across the room. I felt and appeared perfectly healthy. The next visit to the doctor showed a completely healed wound. Now I have been blessed with a beautiful, healthy baby. Bhagavan gave me a chance to bring a gift of life into my family. Everyday I remind myself that I live by His grace alone.”

— A New York Devotee

[From: The Maharshi Newsletter, Sep/Oct 2000, Vol. 10, No. 5]

Life is taken for granted.  We do not yet understand what keeps the clock ticking. How and to what extent.

 


Sunday, February 11, 2024

Conversation with an old friend


 

It was an accidental meeting. 

First he avoided looking into my eyes and turned away. We had known each other for more than 2 decades and there was no way he would not have noticed me. I kept on looking at him. The next time he looked at me I smiled.  He gave me a sheepish smile.  Then after I made enquiries about his health, he slowly started speaking.

Now a days I find from your social media posts that you have developed a very negative opinion about our party.

Yes.

But you appeared to be supportive of our ideas and leaders when we were in the opposition and even when Vajpayeji was the PM.

Yes. When you were in the opposition, Congress had already hit its nadir.  Their leaders were not connected at the ground level.  They had already compromised on those values for which the party stood for prior to Independence. In fact Gandhi wanted the winding up of the party after Independence.  He foresaw the possibility of the party taking the credit for achieving freedom and thus destroying democracy.

Do you mean to say that Gandhi was a democrat?

As an individual, he was not.  He always gave importance for his inner voice. But in governance, he was insistent that it should be democratic.

Then how do you explain his interfering with the elections in Congress itself?

When his opinion and support was sought he took the stand that he could not go with someone whose path he had no trust in. He was outside the Congress.  The leaders of the Congress required him. That was it.

But how does all this come in the way of your present opposition to our party?

Because, after 2014, your party has openly taken to the path that was earlier followed by the Congress under Mrs. Gandhi.

How was Mrs. Gandhi different from her father?

Her father, in spite of his weaknesses, which he himself would admit here and there, would not like to stick to power at any cost.  Rather, he felt being in power was a burden.  I remember to have read somewhere that this was primarily why Gandhi preferred him to Patel. Nehru himself is believed to have issued a pamphlet using a pseudonym against himself and describing himself as a dictator, to avoid being re-elected President of the Congress.

It could have been a lie circulated to bring credit to himself.

But then, he was always concerned about criticism.  He wanted to be seen as a follower of Gandhian principles and a world leader.  Partly only because of this he failed to see through the Chinese game plans.

Mrs. Indira Gandhi was also sensitive to criticism.

Yes. She inherited it from her father. But, she lacked his confidence.  Hence, sought to reduce the stature of others of her father’s generation.  When she found that she was left without the footing of that generation, she sought to get a firm footing of her own, through nationalization and then she gained better control after the Bangladesh war.

Yes. But for her we may not have won that war.

If Sashtri had been there also we could have won.  Now, we have the habit of trying to put down Nehru with the success in Pakistan war and Bangladesh war.  It is preposterous to speak about Bangladesh and China in the same breath.  But the point is that even after getting an unassailable position after the Bangladesh war, she constantly was wary of the opposition, within the Congress and outside, which ultimately lead to the Emergency.

But how do you blame us of following her footsteps?  You are well aware that we were the ones who fought against the emergency.  The Communist fellows cowed down meekly.

Yes.  Some of your leaders and cadre fought against the emergency.  Some in the Communist party also. But some of your people also had a soft corner for her because, she was openly showing pro-Hindu leanings.  Her son, Sanjay was a great fan of your theories of ‘teaching the Muslims a lesson or putting them in place’.  The present bulldozer culture of some of your state governments reminds me of only the Turkman gate incidents.

But we are staunchly against dynasty politics.

When you propound a Hindu rashtra, which is unquestionably linked to varnashrama and has become embedded as caste system, how do you say dynasty could be done away with?

But some families have been looting the country like the Gandhi family at the centre, the Abdhullahs in J&K and the Karunanidhi family in TN.

But in these 10 years, have you been able to bring them to book?  Atleast establish primafacie cases? During the UPA you made such a big din about the 2G that you have not been able to establish the case in the last 10 year of your rule. I do agree that a hand full of people or families amassing wealth is bad for the economy and democracy.  Whether it is a ruling clan or a corporate body. A democracy with vibrant institutions like the legislature, Judiciary and press should ensure that such things do not happen.  For that matter, have not the second generation already started coming up in your party?  Then how can you blame the banyan called the Congress or similar old parties?  And whether Congress or your party or others, there is open alignment with the corporates.

Do you not see that we have been bringing legislations to ensure a curb on corruption?

I find that your legislations are mostly to serve your own party than to bring long term solutions to the real problem. 

How do you say that?

Demonitisation, PM CARES Fund, Electoral Bonds, Change in committee to appoint Election Commissioners by giving the entire power to the PM with 2/3 strength, attempts to change the collegium system so that similar exercise could be done in the matter of appointing Judges, etc are purely for putting your selves on a higher footing from the others so that the level playing field is taken away.  I am reminded about someone like Mr. Gurumurthy saying that in order to win more medals in the Asiad or Olympics, we should include those games in which we are better at. That is precisely what your party has been doing in terms of legislations.  Bringing in your own rules of the game or game itself. The next in your agenda is to go in for delimitation by which the south and east will become irrelevant for your majority, because, these regions think differently.

You are questioning the competence of the elected party with a majority to make laws.

Laws have to be made in continuation to the earlier ones.  Just because I have a majority I cannot rubbish all the earlier events or legislations and create something out of the blue.  That will destroy the concept of ‘rule of law’. That is what anarchy is about and how people like Hitler liked to interpret democracy.

But this so called ‘rule of law’ has been inherited from the British. Why should we hang on to it?

Many of the present day laws have been continued from the British. But even when British made laws which were against our interest, there have been protests, often violent, against them.  Thus, it is an evolution that has taken place.  To say that we will repeal all that has been done from the British period is to go back to Sati, non-marriage of widows, non-inheritance of property by women, untouchability, etc.

We want to go back to the golden age of our ancestors where these discriminations were not there.  It is the British and left historians who portrayed as if these were there in the Hindu society.

First of all, there is no proof that man ever lived without discriminations, in one form or the other.  Secondly, clock cannot be set back in time. Third, there are enough recordings by our own people regarding such bad practices and from time to time there have been attempts to reform from within.  Putting all the blame ofn the British will not cut much ice.  Lastly, even if such an ambition is genuine, the tone and tenor of your present leadership is not promising in that regard.

How do you make such a bland and blanket statement? You are biased.

Yes. I have become biased because I saw that even after being elected to power, you keep on speaking as if you are in the opposition.  Your tallest leaders speak the language of regional party leaders or even leaders of some splinter groups or pressure groups.  You people have forgotten that once elected, you have to speak and act on behalf of all people.  Not ‘your people’ alone.

But every other party which gets elected, works only for their supporters.  You are proposing an utopian theory.

Agreed. In practice, it had been so.  But in public and while speaking and acting in capacities of elected posts, people were expected to behave according to their positions.  That is why I have not had any objection to Vajpayee, but do not accept Mrs. Gandhi.

Now you are coming back to the same thing.  I think there is no point in talking to you.  You cannot be convinced.

Yes, I would better not be.

That is why I avoided speaking to you. After the next elections, people of your type will either change or will be forced to.

 

After he left, I was left ruminating:

I was reminded of what Kuldip Nayar wrote in his book on the Emergency (The Judgment).  While waiting for the train just before the election results were to be announced (in 1977) he says, suddenly a thought flashed in his mind, ‘what if she comes back’?.  

I would better believe in God.


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