PUBLIC INTEREST – A SCIENCE FICTION

 

We had reached the railway station well in advance. 

It was raining cats and dogs, and was cold in the night.

The station was full, with families huddled up, with bag and baggage waiting for their trains.  There were people rushing in at the last moment.  They obviously had been caught in the traffic outside, due to rains.

But we were comfortably well in advance.  I and my son had a cup of hot tea.  We kept starring at the board for the announcement of the platform of the train.

My son scrolled in his mobile for the coach position so that we could go to the appropriate spot on the platform.  There were more than 12 platforms and very lengthy ones.  So to reach the correct spot on the correct platform, with such a big crowd would be difficult.

But I told him that until the platform is announced, there is no point in knowing the coach position.  Platforms could undergo a change at the last moment if some VIP train is to pull up the platform scheduled for us, or if another train expected to leave the platform has not left. 

Then again, even the coach positions shown on the website may undergo a change at the last moment.  Even in stations where the trains stop only for 2 or 3 minutes, I have seen people running from one end of the platform to the other end, with loads of their belongings and children, because the coach positions were not as per announcement. 

At least we had an advantage. Our station was the terminus.  There will be a lot of time for us to board the train.

So I asked him to keep cool and wait for the announcement of the platform first.

He was not very much convinced.  He gave me a look of disapproval.  ‘Old man, never changes’, was evident from his mocking glare.

There was a delay of more than 2 hours for our train to arrive.  Rains had not stopped.  Obviously that would also be a reason for the late arrival.  Other trains were also getting delayed.  Their departure also. Perhaps the sympathetic department, to help those who could have been stuck up in traffic, obviously were waiting a bit.

By mid night our train was announced.  There was a mad rush towards the platform.  The platform was already full with passengers waiting there for some other train which had also been scheduled there.  Then passengers getting out of the incoming train were in a hurry to get out.   They were already late.  They had to get some transport to get home.  Some of their relatives had also come to the platform.  Porters were running here and there, trying to get some clients, older the better.  

We managed to wade through the crowd and find our compartment.  The third class A/C compartment was almost half a kilometer from the engine. 

There used to be charts stuck up on the side of the compartments earlier. We could check our seats and confirm.  There used to be a chart at the entrance also. But times have changed. We were moving into a paperless world. There was no chart, nor did we have the patience. We should get in and try to get some sleep.

After we got in and took our seats, within two minutes a family came and said that the seats and berths were reserved by them.  We cross verified, both our booking details showed the same coach number and seat numbers.

I asked my son to check whether there was a difference in the train number and date. Sometimes while booking, we forget the railway time.  But that happens only in the case of trains starting in the early morning.  Since this was a night train, such a mistake could not have happened due to time and date.

But on verification of the bookings it was clear that two seats had been allotted to both parties. 

We waited for the TTE with bated breath.  The family was also puzzled.  They had a child and an old lady also.  Any change would be of great inconvenience to them.  I an my son at least could get down and change the compartment.  So we asked them to occupy the seats and waited.

The TTE came just before the train was to start.  We went up to him and showed our mobiles.  After verifying his tab, he said that our name was not there.  ‘Could he see if we were in any other compartment’, we asked.  He took our PNR and searched and said that it was not there in that train and for that matter, there was no reservation with that PNR.

We were dumbfounded.  The train was about to leave.  We had to get down immediately.  The other family looked at us with great sympathy.  Or was it derision, I do not know.  Can we buy a ticket, now, I asked the TTE.  No, he said.  Any vacancy or cancellation will have to be allotted to RAC candidates.  So no chance.   Pl be quick and get down, he said and moved away.

We got down with our luggage.

The rain has not abated.

The train moved away slowly first and then fast.

I could not look at my son’s face.  He could not even lift his head.

Let us go and check with the staff, I said.

No other option, we moved on to the office.

There was a big crowd around the counter.  Only three people were seated where more than eight or nine are otherwise seated. It was well past mid night.  All the people who had crowded there were shouting at the top of their voices.  The persons inside were saying something.  It was an absolute cacophony.

Somehow I jostled my way to the counter and managed to show the screen shot of the ticket on my mobile and told the lady at the counter our predicament.  I said we had a reservation and payment was also successful. But now the TTE says that we do not have our name in the chart.

“Which train”, she asked.

I replied.

“But the train has left”, she said.

“We came to know only from the train”, I said.

“Won’t you people verify these things, in advance”, she asked in annoyance and browsed through the computer before her.

Then she looked up and said, “your reservation has been cancelled”.

“Cancelled?” I yelled at the top of my voice. “By whom?”.

“The system has cancelled it,” she said. 

“What system? How? For what reason?”, my questions were quick as also my anxiety.

People around me and behind me were getting restless.  They had their own problems to be addressed, urgently. Some were asking us to move away. The lady at the counter was also seen to becoming alarmed on seeing something on the screen.  Then she asked us to go into an adjacent cabin.  “Meet our AGM there and explain.  He will tell you”, she said.

My heart was pounding. I was feeling dizzy and sweating in spite of the heavy rains and cold wind.

My son’s face looked flushed and pathetic.  He did not comprehend what was happening.  He kept scrolling in his mobile to see how the ticket got cancelled.

We slowly entered a cabin nearby.  I was expecting an elderly person.  But the person sitting there appeared to be quite young and agile.  In the age of hair dyes, age of course cannot be gauged by the colour of the hair, I thought, perhaps to satisfy my self.

From his facial expression, I could understand that he was already aware of the issue.  Perhaps the lady at the counter would have briefed him over the intercom.  Yet, he asked us for the details and then started scrolling through the computer before him.  Then he slowly started speaking.

“See, I can understand your problem.  But unfortunately I should inform you that you have been black-listed’.

My heart sank. “Black-listed?”, my voice would hardly come out.  Then after a pause, I feebly asked, “for what?”.  I did not even think of asking by whom.

I could see my son’s face becoming pale, though I was not looking at him.

The gentleman said, “See, it is a system module to profile passengers.  It works based on a data base which is maintained at our Headquarters.  We cannot have access to it.  If you have any complaints, you can register it in our website or send email to our id given in the web site.”. 

“What do you mean by saying if I have any complaints?  You have not even notified me about the cancelation or given me any alternate ticket.  At this odd hour, what do you expect me to do?”.

“Sir, I am helpless.  I understand your condition.  But I cannot do anything at my level”, he said.

I was numb with disbelief.  What on earth is happening, I thought.  I have heard about the word black-listing only in the case of criminals. Never heard in the case of railway bookings.  Never thought that a booking once confirmed will be cancelled by the department. That too without any intimation and left high and dry.

“Can you atleast be able to see the reason for the said black-listing”, I got some courage to ask the gentleman.

He looked confused.  He thought for a moment.  “It might be confidential”, he said.

“But you have to atleast tell me the basis.  There would have been some reason given there”, I said.

“Please meet our GM.  But do not say I asked you to meet him”, he said and showed me another room.

But the GM’s room was not yet opened.  We waited for another two hours.  It had almost become dawn. 

A person entered the office of the GM.  I peeped in.  He called me in and asked what was the issue.  I did not know whether it was his routine time or whether he had come so early because someone had intimated the issue to him.

I entered his room and narrated all that has happened and all that I had been told.

He looked sadly at me.  Then he opened his computer and after taking my PNR he started searching.  There was pin drop silence in the room for quite a few minutes.  My heart was once again pounding without knowing what new thing he is likely to come up with.

An elderly lady came in and served coffee to him.  He asked us whether we wanted coffee or tea.  I was not in a mood to take anything.  Home was waiting for me 600 Kms away.  Sleep and fatigue was weighing upon my eye lids.  More than that, I felt something which I knew not what, had hit me hard on the head that it was in a swirl. I sheepishly said ‘No thank you sir’.  ‘As if that is so important,’ I thought to myself.

He sipped his coffee and kept looking into the computer. 

Was he really looking into it or just passing time, I could not say for sure.

Then, after a lengthy silence, after his coffee had been completely exhausted, he asked me abrubtly, “What did you have to do with one Z---“.  I did not quite get the question.

He repeated the name again.

I faintly remembered the name.  He was one of my customers in my trade.  That was more than two or three years back.  After that he had left to Hyderabad and I had never heard about him or contacted him.  Rather had no need to.

I informed him this detail and asked what my present situation had to do with that.

He said that the said person had been arrested at Ahmedabad and that I was found to be a person having had a relationship with him and therefore I have been put on the list.  “Since this is confidential, even if you tell any one about this, I will deny having told this to you.  So please do not quote me”, he said.  “From your look and appearance, I felt that you are a victim in this, so I have told you.  So please do not precipitate.  That is good for you.”. Saying this, he abruptly got up from his chair as if asking us to leave.

I felt as if my legs could not carry me any longer.  But I had to leave.

My son had not yet understood much of what had happened.

We managed to get hold of a bench and sit there.  The rains had become a mere drizzle.  Day was opening.  The crowds had become thinner.  But I felt as if I was in a dark dungeon. No light would come to my mind.

What had the arrest of some fellow, at some remote part of the country, had to do with my profile and life?

‘Shall we book another ticket?”, asked my son.

I did not have enough strength even to answer him.

After he repeated the question impatiently after some time, I said, ‘no use, they will not give’.

He was perplexed. He did not understand how some data base working in the interest of the public could ruin us, for no fault of ours.

I did not know how to go further.  Will I be able to go by bus atleast?  Will this data base be used in all places? When even by rail I cannot move, whether flights will allow me? Where can I get the answers and remedy? To whom should I prove my innocence?

Or is this all a dream?

 

 

 

 

A NEW INNINGS

 

25^th of January 2025 will remain a memorable day in my life.  The date was fixed for the launch of the two translations – #THIRUKKURAL-108, translation of 108 chapters of Aram and Porul in Thirukkural from Tamil into two line couplets in English and Ul Oli Prapanja Thyanam, translation of the English book Inner Light Cosmic Meditation of Dhyana Guru Kumar Krishnamoorthy into Tamil.  The date was fixed after ascertaining the availability of Nanjil Nadan Sir.  He was subsequently called for a flag hoisting on 26^th at Virudhunagar.  He declined it because he had already accepted the date at Coimbatore for 25^th evening.

Though the translation work of Thirukkural had begun in 2002 and in different sessions was completed in 2020 and the translation of Inner Light Cosmic Meditation started somewhere in 2007 was completed in 2008, they had decided to come out only together on the same day. 

And when I informed Shri. Kumar Krishnamoorthy about the launch programme at Coimbatore, he immediately booked his tickets.  He then descended on Coimbatore with 8 of his angels.

On 24^th evening he said, whoever has chosen the date, had chosen a date of celestial importance.  I said, I did not know anything about it.  At 8.30 pm on 25^th, he said 6 planets were to fall in a straight line, some phenomenon known to happen only once in 144 years.  It is all a cosmic design he said. 

His speech made in the function on 25th left people spell bound.  ‘He is at a different level’, many in the audience felt.

Dr. Olivannan, came down from Chennai, in spite of his busy schedule at Chennai on several counts.  He gave a marvelous speech. I should also thank Mrs. Nalini and others at Emerald Publications who have been a silent and constant strength in bringing out the THIRUKKURAL 108. 

Dr. N.V.K. Ashraf, who lives now in Trichur, was having a programme at Chennai that week till 24^th, came to Coimbatore, inspite of having the reception of CR Sir’s son’s to be attend at Chennai on 25^th.  To ensure that he will be able to come here, he had attended the marriage of C.R sir’s son’s wedding at Hosur in the previous week itself.  When I had also gone there, his wife was very happy on seeing me and gave me her good wishes for the book launch.  When I apologized for their inconvenience because they could have had avoided the journey to Hosur, but for the date of book launch clashing with the reception date, she said ‘no, no, that is also important’.  Before leaving, she was repeatedly wishing me all the best for the launch. Her love for the Thirukkural was really moving.

CR sir who had agreed to take part if the launch of Thirukkural 108 was to be held at Chennai, later could not do so due to the date clashing with the reception date of his son.  The launch schedule at Chennai was avoided since Nanjil Sir was to do it at Coimbatore and Dr. Olivannan said that it may not be appropriate to do it earlier when such a big writer was to do it at Coimbatore.

That renowned writer Ahila mam and Dr. K. Sathyanarayana, the Secretary of Manis, where I had studied agreed to come to receive the first copies of the book on being launched, sat through the entire proceedings and gave very good speeches was another blessing.

Even my father’s colleagues had come to bless me on the occasion.

Seniors from my department had also come and silently attended the proceedings, not wanting to gain lime light.

Nanjil sir, as is his usual habit, had painstakingly prepared his speech – a deep and well researched one provoking deep thought. 

Justice D. Raju had sent his wishes which was read out by Shri. Thangavelu.  Susila mam had also sent me her wishes personally. She had also asked me to convey her enquiries to Dr. Olivannan and Ahila mam.

I do not want to repeat what I had said in an earlier fb post or in my speech at the launch.  The links of the launch are provided below, in the order in which the speeches happened.  Only in the last video, along with the acceptance speech, other speeches some others have also been added.

Friends had come from far off places like Chennai, Tirunelveli, Palakkad and Pollachi for the event.  I was very much moved.

I got a new friend, in person, since he was already known to me through fb. Shri. Kannan, who happens to be from the same school that I studied from – Manis and had been a blue eyed boy of my own Jogee Master who had been fond of me also.  It was from him that I understood from a very early age of 12 that being intelligent and scoring marks were different things. Dr. Ashraf had mentioned Shri. Kannan in his speech as another translator of Thirukkural into English, which was yet to be published. 

Several other writers like Shri. Jeeva and Shri. Aravind Vadaseri were also gracious to come for the event.  Also Shri. RAAC Ravindran had silently participated in the event till the last.

There are many other friends of mine who had taken pains to come, leaving aside their holiday programmes, tours and from their native places, just to participate and conduct the programme.

Shri. Prakash of Siruvani Vasagar Mayyam had along with Shri. Thangavelu pain stakingly charted out the entire programme right from the date of its launch, fixing the venue, deciding the menu, deciding upon the time for each speaker, etc and also anchoring the entire proceedings. Friends like Balu, Kannapiran and Mahendran took care of the dinner arrangements completely that everyone who attended the dinner were highly satisfied.

Friends who had conducted the programme and been gracious to shower their love and affection on me have asked me to write about my own experiences.  I told them I do not know whether one’s experiences really have any benefit for the others and then, I am in a dilemma as to in which language, Tamil or English that I should write, if I decide to write at all. 

I should thank Smt. Rajeswari Sowrirajan, for having been gracious enough to get her students sing the invocation song, translation of Vaishnava janatho, in Tamil for the occasion. It was soul stirring particularly when rendered in the language that all of us could understand. And it was relevant for both the books being launched.

One person whom we missed in the event was Shri. Manohar, the person who toiled with the DTP work, lay out and wrapper making of UL OLI PRABANJA THYANAM. He could not attend due to personal reasons.  

Shri. Thirichangu, who had also been behind the project in supporting me, also could not attend due to being under treatment.

Another person who was closely associated with the project of THIRUKKURAL 108 was hoping to join at Chennai, but could not come to Coimbatore since he was undergoing treatement, was Shri. V. Gopalan.  But his entire heart was here.

 Vijaya Padhippagam Velayudham Ayya also called up the very next day morning and appoligised for not being able to come due to health reasons. The call itself was a gracious gesture. 

 Dhyana Guru Kumar Krishnamoorthy speech

Dr. Ashraf speech

Dr Olivannan Speech

Speeches of Writer Ahila and Dr. K. Sathyanarayana

Nanjil Nadan Speech

Welcome address, AKK speech, Acceptance speech and Vote of thanks

Vaishnavajanatho in tamil and acceptance speech

Thanking my parents, teachers, family and friends, well wishers and the forces of the universe, once again.

-Manimohan

28.01.2025

Testimony of an Individual

 

When I start this ‘Testimony of an Individual’, I am reminded about JK’s question, as to who really an individual is.Whether he is really indivisible, as the term would suggest?  Are we not made up of various parts - whether by cell structure or by thought process? The cells keep on changing, recreating, dying, and the body is in a state of constant flux.  The mind keeps changing.  Thoughts flow in and out.  From where, we are yet to gather.  Controls, we think, we have.  Biological process some would say.  Chemical process, others would state.  Consciousness, claims someone else. The certainty of the physical form is itself sometimes in question.  Therefore, the question of as to who is an individual and who is this ‘I’ has remained fundamental to all philosophy, worldwide, for ages, from the Upanishads, to the Buddha, to Socrates, to JK and to Ramana Maharshi. Everyone, thinks on this at some point in time, though not always.

I remember to have read a story, some time back, but could not exactly locate it now or remember the author.  It was something like this:

In an area where a lot of labourers or poor people lived, came to reside a call girl in a palatial house.  She was unapproachable by any of the local people, but had rich customers from outside.  The poor locals were furious over this and decided to get to her by a plan.  They decided to pool their money by contributing one penny each, so that they will be able to gather as much as to become eligible to be entertained by her and to select one person amongst them by lot, to be sent to her, as their representative.  Thus, one of them goes there and after the purpose was served, reveals to her his identity.  When she asks him how he managed to get the huge amount in spite of coming from the poor locality, he reveals how they collected the money. She then picks up one penny from the money he had given her and gives it back to him saying, ‘you had it for free’. 

This short story has left a lasting impression on me.

We are all, in some ways, that call girl; in many ways, that person who was sent to her; and mostly those who sent him there by collecting and contributing.

All these form part of the ‘I’.

And much more….